Everyone left?

WTF happened? I am starting to think people are ignorning me and not taking me seriously cuz i made a few "minor" mistakes in my life.
all these people on my blogroll that use to leave me the occasional comment hasn't done that in god knows how long..thats okay i am going to....muddle through this and keep on posting..i'm going to try to at least get one good post in a week until i'm back up and online again.

The Biggest thing going on locally in my town is, the new bridge....
Said to be the LARGEST of its kind in the US. We are having a big fireworks display for it Thursday and I think Friday or Saturday they are going to have the opening ceremony and then it will be ready for US(the public) to Drive over..a lot of people has already walked and ran on the bridge..and there was this big to-do where they had a black tie dinner for 200 bucks a piece and raised like thousands of dollars..i'm not really interested in this..sure i wouldn't mind and would actually love to go across it but the local news is running the idea of it in the ground and now i'm just sick of hearing about it.

I almost got electricuted the other day cleaning my house...I turned on the exhaust fan over the stove and it just hummed and then it caught on fire...it was the wire..so i used a paper towel to touch it real fast to hurry up and outten it and i felt a small jolt..enough to scare me is all but my son really freaked out..
My oldest son, Dakota is being held back in Kindergarden this year..cuz he can't read and write to well....DAMN..he CAN read and write somewhat but according to the teach not good enough...when i was in kindergarden the main concern was playing and learning the alphabet and your numbers thats as far as we gotten...
not in today's world.

What else? hmm..
Not much else to say, i'm waiting to go back to work..they still haven't called me off of my furlough yet this has been like 5 months now!!!

Here it goes:

I'm going to try to post some new things in here. its been awhile since my last post and i feel i have neglected my duties as a blogger to all my readers (the 3 i May or May not have *lol*)
I am still very clean, i haven't even drank a drop of alcohol in like a month as well as being clean from drugs for like 2 maybe even 3 months. YAY go me!!
My brother has my twin Austin and I miss him so much he is my lil guy and i miss him but i don't deserve him, not right now anyway. I've been a bad parent and i know that. I don't deserve him until i can straighten out my life a little bit better.
I also have an online diary at http://www.opendiary.com/madnesscalls I hope that link works, there you will find some enteries that just may fill in the blanks here.
I have a bad habit of starting something, getting it going and then forgetting about it. its because I dont get much feedback and i'm sure nooone reads these things anyways so i just tend to forget about them.
I'm into writing poetry again and have a few good ones since I last left you all.

My medication dosage is going okay, because i had been off of my meds for so long starting them up again has made me one agitated human being. I take 1500 mg of depakote a night along with 50 mg of visteral its suppose to help me sleep and help with the anxiety..it helps somewhat w/anxiety but doesn't help me sleep (anymore) at least i'm not breaking out in rashes all over my skin anymore so thats always a good thing.
I don't have that many friends...at least right now anyway. i talk to ppl but i hardly hang out with anyone except deb. (debbie is my cousin CJ's wife) CJ is currently incarcerated in the South Carolina State Prision system though he is due to get out in August. I hope so cuz, i know she misses him dearly and im sure he misses her too.
There is no new love interest in my life at this time, i've made a few "friends" here and there but thats about it.
so on that note i will end this here, please feel free to give me some feedback, it helps motivate me into writing more.
more of my boring life from the state of South Carolina..the most backwards state in the whole U.S. of A.
*LOL* J/k.